The Amazing Journey

I’ve just celebrated 43 of very grateful and amazing sobriety.  The last 14 years of that sobriety have been an unbelievable miracle.  Life took over and I made lots of mistakes.  Imagine all that time in AA and being asked to leave a job or get fired, get evicted from an apartment, live in a car and travel to different states. I’ve had unresolved resentments, debilitating depressions and have spent time blaming everyone and everything else for my difficulties.  I cried out to God, “What the hell, where’s the goodies I was supposed to get being sober and going to meetings?”  Selfishness and self-centeredness has lain at the root of my problems. It’s in the Big Book but I could not or would not see it, having forgotten about that “daily reprieve contingent on the maintenance of our spirit condition.”